scrapbook *forty-nine*

10/7 - 20/8, 2013

take 2 

SOLACE

In my Quest for self-assurance
I’ve bled and I’ve wept
I’ve paid other people's debts
Just to gain their confidence 
I stopped laughing at cruel jokes

I lied in the dark next to my invisible lovers 
I forsook happiness because of the Love I was denied 
I embraced Hatred 
I became a beast with 
Seven heads and deadly claws 

I confined myself in a vortex of guilt 
Until I eventually found unimaginable strength
Inside a hidden chest, my mind

Some nights I dream that I'm writing my suicide note
But keep forgetting what it says
And then I'm stuck in Limbo
Because neither God nor Devil exist